Posts Tagged ‘questions’

Confusion

Thursday, September 10th, 2009

EmoI never used to understand why people said life was complicated. To me, it seemed very simple. Wake up, go to school, learn, see friends, have fun, play sport, go home to family, sleep and repeat.

Life was good, maybe too good. I couldn’t relate to people’s hardship, their inability to see God or even why they didn’t like school. Sure, some lessons are boring, but friends were there to get you through. Now I understand.

It’s not that life is complicated, it’s us. People are complicated. I just got complicated. I have hopes and dreams that are bigger than me. Ideas far beyond what I can construct right now. Yet, here I sit. In lecture after lecture, being taught things I have no interest in. Have I given up on my dreams? No. Am I taking a safe route? No. I’m walking through the only door open right now, waiting for an escape, a window letting in some light, an opportunity to finally be me.

Unfortunately the only door available for me to walk through has thrown me off balance. I feel disconnected from life, floating arbly observing the mess, screaming for a way out. My mind wonders as the lectures drag on, my emotions rise as I begin to question all that I know.

What I had learnt in the good times was that hard times would come. It was imminent at some point. Yet I wasn’t ready, I couldn’t be ready for a pain so abstract it can’t be put into words. Confusion is the closest word in the English language that can describe my situation.

Why is this the only door open? What am I supposed to gain from doing these things? How do I stay positive when everything around me is negative? How do I get by before the opportunity of escape comes? More importantly, how do I enjoy this time even through struggle and how do I do it without regrets?

Stupid questions about South Africa

Monday, March 30th, 2009

South AfricaQuestions about South Africa were posted on a South African Tourism Website and were answered by the website owner.

Q: Does it ever get windy in South Africa? I have never seen it rain on TV, so how do the plants grow? (UK)
A: We import all plants fully grown and then just sit around watching them die.

Q: Will I be able to see elephants in the street? (USA)
A: Depends how much you’ve been drinking or sniffing.

Q: I want to walk from Durban to Cape Town - can I follow the railroad tracks? (Sweden)
A: Sure, it’s only two thousand kilometres. Take lots of water.

Q: Is it safe to run around in the bushes in South Africa? (Sweden)

A: So it’s true what they say about Swedes.

Q: Are there any ATMs (cash machines) in South Africa? Can you send me a list of them in JHB, Cape Town, Knysna and Jeffrey’s Bay? (UK)
A: What did your last slave die of?

Q: Can you give me some information about Koala Bear racing in South Africa? (USA)
A: Aus-tra-lia is that big island in the middle of the Pacific. A-fri-ca is the big triangle shaped continent south of Europe which does not… oh forget it. Sure, the Koala Bear racing is every Tuesday night in Hillbrow. Come naked.

Q: Which direction is north in South Africa? (USA)
A: Face south and then turn 90 degrees. Contact us when you get there and we’ll send the rest of the directions.

Q: Can I bring cutlery into South Africa? (UK)
A: Why? Just use your fingers like we do.

Q: Can you send me the Vienna Boys’ Choir schedule? (USA)
A: Aus-tri-a is that quaint little country bordering Ger-man-y, which is. oh forget it. Sure, the Vienna Boys Choir plays every Tuesday night in Hillbrow, straight after the Koala Bear races. Come naked.

Q: Do you have perfume in South Africa? (France)
A: No, WE don’t stink.

Q: I have developed a new product that is the fountain of youth. Can you tell me where I can sell it in South Africa? (USA)
A: Anywhere significant numbers of Americans gather.

Q: Can you tell me the regions in South Africa where the female population is smaller than the male population? (Italy)
A: Yes, gay nightclubs.

Q: Do you celebrate Christmas in South Africa? (France)
A: Only at Christmas.

Q: Are there killer bees in South Africa? (Germany)
A: Not yet, but for you, we’ll import them.

Q: Are there supermarkets in Cape Town and is milk available all year round? (Germany)
A: No, we are a peaceful civilisation of vegan hunter-gatherers. Milk is illegal

Q: Please send a list of all doctors in South Africa who can dispense rattlesnake serum. (USA)
A: Rattlesnakes live in A-me-ri-ca, which is where YOU come from. All South African snakes are perfectly harmless, can be safely handled and make good pets. Good examples of snakes as pets are mambas (both green and black), rinkhals and municipal workers.

Q: I was in South Africa in 1969, and I want to contact the girl I dated while I was staying in Hillbrow. Can you help? (USA)
A: Yes, and you will still have to pay her by the hour.

Q: Will I be able to speak English most places I go? (USA)
A: Yes, but you’ll have to learn it first.

The Daffodil Principle

Friday, February 27th, 2009

DaffodilsSeveral times my daughter had telephoned to say, “Mother, you must come to see the daffodils before they are over.”

I wanted to go, but it was a two hour drive from Laguna to Lake Arrowhead “I will come next Tuesday”, I promised a little reluctantly on her third call. Next Tuesday dawned cold and rainy. Still, I had promised, and reluctantly I drove there. When I finally walked into Carolyn’s house I was welcomed by the joyful sounds of happy children. I delightedly hugged and greeted my grandchildren.

“Forget the daffodils, Carolyn! The road is invisible in these clouds and fog, and there is nothing in the world except you and these children that I want to see badly enough to drive another inch!”  My daughter smiled calmly and said, “We drive in this all the time, Mother.  ”Well, you won’t get me back on the road until it clears, and then I’m heading for home!” I assured her.

“But first we’re going to see the daffodils. It’s just a few blocks,” Carolyn said.  ”I’ll drive. I’m used to this.”
“Carolyn,” I said sternly, “Please turn around.”
“It’s all right, Mother, I promise. You will never forgive yourself if you miss this experience.”

After about twenty minutes, we turned onto a small gravel road and I saw a small church. On the far side of the church, I saw a hand lettered sign with an arrow that read, “Daffodil Garden.”  We got out of the car, each took a child’s hand, and I followed Carolyn down the path. Then, as we turned a corner, I looked up and gasped, before me lay the most glorious sight.

It looked as though someone had taken a great vat of gold and poured it over the mountain peak and its surrounding slopes. The flowers were planted in majestic, swirling patterns, great ribbons and swaths of deep orange, creamy white, lemon yellow, salmon pink, and saffron and butter yellow. Each different coloured variety was planted in large groups so that it swirled and flowed like its own river with its own unique hue. There were five acres of flowers.

“Who did this?” I asked Carolyn.  ”Just one woman,” Carolyn answered. “She lives on the property. That’s her home.”
Carolyn pointed to a well kept A-frame house, small and modestly sitting in the midst of all that glory. We walked up to the house.

On the patio, we saw a poster. “Answers to the Questions I Know You Are Asking”, was the headline. The first answer was a simple one. “50,000 bulbs,” it read. The second answer was, “One at a time, by one woman. Two hands, two feet, and one brain.
“The third answer was, “Began in 1958.”

For me, that moment was a life changing experience. I thought of this woman whom I had never met, who, more than forty years before, had begun, one bulb at a time, to bring her vision of beauty and joy to an obscure mountaintop. Planting one bulb at a time, year after year, this unknown woman had forever changed the world in which she lived. One day at a time, she had created something of extraordinary magnificence, beauty, and inspiration. The principle her daffodil garden taught is one of the greatest principles of celebration.

That is, learning to move toward our goals and desires one step at a time–often just one baby step at time–and learning to love the doing, learning to use the accumulation of time. When we multiply tiny pieces of time with small increments of daily effort, we too will find we can accomplish magnificent things. We can change the world.

“It makes me sad in a way,” I admitted to Carolyn. “What might I have accomplished if I had thought of a wonderful goal thirty five or forty years ago and had worked away at it ‘one bulb at a time’ through all those years? Just think what I might have been able to achieve!”

My daughter summed up the message of the day in her usual direct way. “Start tomorrow,” she said.

She was right. It’s so pointless to think of the lost hours of yesterdays. The way to make learning a lesson of celebration instead of a cause for regret is to only ask, “How can I put this to use today?”

Use the Daffodil Principle.

Jumbled thoughts of a Christian Teenager

Tuesday, February 3rd, 2009

???Why do people want to grow up? Once you’ve grown up all the fun is gone, everybody worries and gets all serious when there’s so much more to life. I don’t think God ever intended for us to loose that spirit and life. We are even required to have a child like faith, believing in things that no ‘respectable adult’ would believe in. At the same time we should be growing as people, getting wiser and knowing how to deal with certain situations. To be wise and yet have that kid inside always ready for anything and excited about life, that seems to be the formulae that we should grow with.

We see it in those so called soppy movies, we hear it in the songs we listen too but we don’t do it. We smile, get a warm fuzzy feeling and move on. That’s so sad. We miss the crux of what’s going on. It’s like walking through life looking at this beautiful world and saying, wow this is one amazing accident. Huh? You just don’t get it. One question people always ask Christians is, “What about those people who never heard about Jesus?” Jesus is everywhere, he’s God! He made this world and is apart of its movement, he’s the air we breath, he is love, life and everything. How can you not hear the message? It’s screaming at you from all angles, yet some just don’t get it. And those Christians who are nodding and saying, he’s right, they just don’t get it. We don’t get it either! We try and God loves that we do, but we will never fully understand him. He’s infinite.

If we really got it, this thing that screams – God is right here, he loves you with everything and wants you to know him more, we wouldn’t sin. We wouldn’t be able to. I’ve often read the Israelite’s journey and thought, how can they be so stupid? God is right there, doing miraculous things every day and yet they just don’t get it. Moses disappears up a mountain for a few days and they freak out. They decide to pray to a golden statue! You read that and think, these guys are so stupid – God is right there showing them with visible, undeniable miracles that would knock the socks off anybody and they just don’t get it. Are we so different?

We sing and shout and praise God with everything we have and we feel his awesome love. We know, that we know, that we know that he is right there and we feel untouchable. But the next day, it fades and soon we forget about his love. The monotony and continuation of life makes it fade. God is right there, he’s with you every step of the way but you don’t acknowledge him. He becomes an idea when he was so real, until your next encounter with him. It’s seems so wrong but it’s what we do, it’s what I do.

Sea PartingSo what do you do? I’m talking to myself as much as anybody else, but I think the key is spending more time meditating on the word of God – who he is. Through real people’s stories God has shown us himself. So we read them, again and again. As we read God reveals himself in different ways. You stop and think, hey why did he do that? As Rob Bell puts it, you ask questions which lead to more questions, those lead to more answers with more questions. It goes on forever because God is infinite. But as you learn more, you love God more. You understand things more. You try harder to do or not do certain things. You appreciate life more and you’ll find that you just don’t get it. So you carry on, and eventually what seemed like work becomes pleasure. You can’t wait to get home and read God’s word. You want to talk and discuss God more and more. You find other conversation lifeless without God being the centre of it all. You fall in love with Him again every day.

In this way we learn, we grow and although we may never get it – we know we’re on the right track to understanding who God is. The “I AM.”